Anxiety Attack!

So I got invited to a gallery opening tonight. When I first got the invitation, I was happy -- giddy, even. Us stay-at-home moms rarely have the occasion to get dressed up and go out for an evening.

But now that the moment is here, I'm filled with anxiety. And it all boils down to one thing - what to wear???

I hate that.

I've tried on probably half a dozen outfits and none of them seem right to me. I've gone through my closet about twice as many times...searching...searching...searching...that's the problem with us stay at home moms...since we rarely go out, that means we don't really have anything to wear on those rare occasions.

I hate being in a room full of people and being uncomfortable with how I look. Too many bad memories of the eating disorder days.

It's almost enough to make me want to stay home. I would, in fact, if I hadn't committed to a friend to go with her.

Hell, if this were a mommy's playdate at the Discovery Centre, I'd be all set.

I'm going to be screwed if my husband does finish law school. I shudder to think of the cocktail parties now....