I can feel it building - the apprehension that I always feel right before we go away on our annual Retreat. While I welcome the break from "real life" - no television, no phone, no computer - part of me always feels nervous about not having those distractions around. The conditions force me to be present. Ultimately, it's a good thing, but part of me always almost dreads it before we go.
There is nowhere to hide.
I have a lot of mental, emotional, and spiritual 'crap' that I am processing lately. It's a lot of work. I still have a long, long way to go before I'm "all better" -- completely healed. It's possible that I'll never be, I don't know. It's good to sometimes be forced to face those issues; it's all too easy to run away from them sometimes, to sink into a website or call someone or veg out in front of a movie. I won't have those options available to me for 5 days.
It's a scary prospect.
Scary, but exciting at the same time.
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