My plan for tomorrow morning is to get up bright and early and go for a nice long run. I haven't gone on a long run in months. I've been so afraid lately...afraid to be alone with myself, my thoughts, my memories.
I finally feel ready to face them.
I'm posting my plan here so that hopefully it will prevent me from backing out. I need this. I need to run. I need to allow the thoughts and the emotions to wash over me, and know that I'm not going to crumble. I will listen to my breathing and hear the birds singing and remind myself what it feels like to be alive, and all of the wonderful reasons that I have for living. I will turn my face up to the sun and drink in the glorious morning.
If I feel afraid, I will remind myself that fear won't hurt me. If I feel sad, I will tell myself that sadness won't destroy me. If I feel anger, I will let it in only long enough to let it see that I'm ready for it to move on.
I am ready for it.
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